happy fourth of july!

My kids like to make funny faces :) I was hoping for a drama free day, but that doesn't look to be the case. In any event, I hope everyone else has a great day!

thursday (image heavy)

*deputies said *jesus signs in taft *are dirty drug towns the only place to find religion? *or do poor towns cling to religion like a life raft, hoping to be saved? * lakeview gusher * its our time maricopa, save our town! *cows! *pismo beach *splash cafe claw chowder in bread bowls * sandcastle development *reagan picking up shells *gavin getting buried *cold water *7-eleven and margarita the dog *shell beach *private cove, just like in the movies *purple flowers in fence posts * san luis obispo *beautiful cemeteries *blue tiled government building *indian on the corner *rio at the sunset drive in *pitch black winding roads *mice! *inconvenience stores *crack using towns and nothing's open? *home sweet home

(not all thoughts have pictures. pictures taken with my moto droid and my regular kodak digital camera)

march

March came and went without a peep from me. It was a pretty busy month for us, and a stressful one as well.

Gavin started off our March birthday madness by turning five on the 6th. He had a Cars themed birthday (for the second year in a row- its what he wanted...) and tons of fun. Reagan and I came next, both sharing the 13th. She turned one and I turned twenty-seven. My birthday was pretty much overlooked in interest of hers. Originally that's how I wanted it, I just wasn't in the mood to celebrate. But once it happened, I was a little sad. It was also my first birthday without my grandma, and it was devastating to me. I missed being told that I was her favorite birthday present, and that I always had to keep her age a secret :) You see, her birthday is March 14th. She would have been eighty-seven. That was a particularly difficult day for me....

The relationship with the other half was really strained in March as well. I don't know what his issues were, but he was such a dick the entire month. It was soooooooo so draining. If he wasn't at work, he was moping upstairs in our room. I felt like a single parent, I was doing everything by myself. Things have gotten a little better since then, but not a whole lot. We did go to Las Vegas the other day, which was nice (I'll be posting about that separately). He had a good attitude while we were there, then switched right back to douche mode the literal minute we came back into town. 

Anyway, Las Vegas pictures/post soon, plus some of the pages from my 28 before 28 list/journal. I'm really excited to be doing one of these this year. When journals are involved, I just go crazy and get stuff done!

friday friday

my little girl is five months old today! i can't believe it. where does time go?

three journal pages will show up later, i've been super busy the past few days.

the diet has left me irritable and hungry (still). i need to get near a scale to see if i've actually lost weight. if i haven't even lost water weight, i think i'm going to stop and re-evaluate. 

i had an awful dream last night. i caught the other half having sex with someone else, and then he left me for her because "shes what you're not- skinny, fun and interesting." i woke up crying, that's how bad it was. we had a really pretty bed in the dream though....strange...

happy friday the 13th!

baby food

We have started giving Rea some baby foods. Not all the time, just like two times a day, every other day. I had wanted to wait as long as I could to start her on them (shes only almost five months old), but she just loves to eat and we go through formula like crazy! We use Gerber Nature Select baby food (1st foods- for supported sitters). So far she l-o-v-e-s sweet potatoes and is on the rocks about bananas. I can't believe shes growing so fast. You'd think I'd be prepared, since Gav is four years old and we've been through the baby thing before, but its still shocking. Time flies so fast.

weekend review

My weekend was alright. We never made it to the beach, which was a bummer because it got really hot here. But well, the other half says he's committed to buying a house this time, so we have to start saving. Of course, he has to buy a house before we get married (because my credit is poor and he doesn't want me on the loan). And once we do get a house (which he says will be the beginning of next year), we'll be broke...so the wedding will have to wait even more. I don't see the point in even planning on one anymore. He will always have an excuse to postpone it.

We did get some new clothes for the kids though, which was awesome because they both need them. And we got Rea a bear walker. She doesn't really try to move in it, but she loves playing with the toy attachments :) We had the same bear walker for Gav when he was a baby, so its kinda sweet that she enjoys it as much as he did. Of course, we bought his when he was a little bit older, so he liked to push around in it. I'm sure Rea will get there soon.

I am super excited for today though. I get to register for Little Feet Repeats (a consignment sale of baby/childrens/maternity clothes, toys, etc that happens twice a year here) and its the start of Journaling for a Cause (run by Janel of Run With Scissors). Once I get to done with the first journal prompt I'll be sure to post it here. I also received (500) Days of Summer via Netflix on Saturday, and I'm hoping to watch it later.

Here's to a super Monday and super week!

busy bee

I've been busy, its been nice. Although, my definition of busy probably doesn't fit most people's.

Tuesday night the other half and I saw Inception. Great movie! Definitely had the what-the-f ending I'd heard so much about. And Joseph Gordon-Levitt is such a hottie! I've thought so ever since 10 Things I Hate About You.

Wednesday Rea had a doctor's appointment. She got a ton of shots which she was not happy about. We did find out that her head situation is good for now though, which is super (her soft spot was closing too fast and they were worried about her skull bones overlapping). I also found some great things for both of the kids' birthday parties. See, it is a good thing that I started planning early :) When I scrounge up some more money I hope to go back (to Target! my fave store) and get some more.

Thursday......I can't remember what I did. Oh yes, the fighting with debt collectors/Citibank. That took up most of my day and was just emotionally draining.

Today? Well, we were supposed to go to the beach, but the other half decided to try and get a loan to buy a house instead. Hes been gone since like 0900, so I guess even leaving late won't be much of an option (too many people try to take off after work on Fridays...and they all drive like douches lol). Unless he came home like right now, but somehow I doubt he will.

Happy weekend everyone!